there we were spilling this incredibly awkward story of her during dinner(s), might i add, for me it was the same story over two different dinners with two sets of different people. i must confess, i feel like im in my final i-give-up stage. they asked, what am i going to do about her? i will do absolutely nothing. my life is my own, i do not need unnecessary burden from those who do not matter to the world, let alone to me.

im very certain now, she is quite thrilled by the attention, taking no responsibilites toward anyone's pride. few months ago, i made a huge deal out of something so vague, something that might or might not even happen, something about the future. she said i know nothing for being this young. the future is now present and what once was vague is now clear, crystal. her moral righteousness has totally disappeared, and little does she know she is the current most famous thirty-year-old-screw-up of the year. she is a clown.