call me foolish, but from what i see, we are pretty much defined by past failings or by the much-touted 'moment'; justified and clarified by life's 'fuck you' quality. i guess when we've been through pitiable, terrible turn of fortune; we just needed something larger in life, something to live and die for.

i get it.

everyone is searching for something to define themselves and pull them out of their depression. we seem like we have our own planet to save; constantly hoping for sunshine and preparing for rain. trust me,

i get it.

what i dont get is why not focus on the here and now too? why waste too much time thinking ahead? why are we too busy preparing for the worst?